(Supreme Goddess Lorena at three months old)

I have been Dominant as far back as I can remember. When I was in grade 1, I had chased a boy around the playground who I had found to be attractive and once I caught him I told him he had to be My boyfriend. I would not let him alone until he gave in and said yes. (I miss him terribly now because he died in a freak accident when he was only 14 yrs old).

When I was in grade 3, I went to a different school. A boy asked Me to be his Girlfriend and I accepted. Then he asked Me to marry him and I again accepted. He bought both of us rings to wear, which he stressed with great importance to have costed him an enormous $2.00 each. (At the time it seemed to be alot.) We adopted his friend to be our child, much to the misery of the poor boy, and we played house often during school lunch hours. I had to go back to My old school the following year so I never got to see him again and I have always wondered what happened to him.

When I was in grade 4, a new boy moved to the area and on his first day at school he fell in love with Me and asked Me, ever so politely, if I would be his Girlfriend. I said yes because I not only found him to be cute and sweet but I also liked the fact that he was short just as My first boyfriend had been. This new boyfriend and I had great times together. We played house as husband and Wife in a tent in his back yard at night while our parents visited inside the house. I suggested we make his friend our baby, again making another poor boy miserable, so we soon had a family. him and I (his friend had soon grown tired of being our "child") played together often. I was always the Dominant one when we played. This boyfriend and I were together always for 2 years straight and then the next year we grew apart in the romantic sense but we still remained best of friends. In grade 7, his family moved to the United States and I never saw him again. I miss him most of all My childhood sweethearts.

I had always been a real tom-boy growing up. All of My friends had been boys. Girls in My class never seemed to like Me very much (though I had many Female friends who were neighbours and in Brownies and Girl Guides with Me) but I never had a problem getting boys to play with Me. It took Me several years to figure out that was the very reason why the girls in My class hated Me so much.

In grade 7, several boys started to take an interest in sex and soon boys were either trying to kiss Me or they were inviting themselves over to My house to show Me their newly found friend. I was not ready. I was angered by their approach and I had to physically toss boys from My house twice. A very strange thing happened during that year though. A Girl younger than Me had taken a liking to Me and She invited Me over to Her house after school. She took Me into the shed in Her backyard where She proudly showed Me Her father's Penthouse magazines. She liked the photos but I had no interest in photos of nude Women whatsoever. What I did like, however, were the comics "Wicked Wanda". I was immediately attracted to Her character. I found Her to be so powerful and exciting! She would not put up with any rudeness or mistreatment from a man and I could not get over seeing for the first time men on leashes! I wanted to be Her so much! I had also always been drawn to Veronica's character in the Archie Comics. I much preferred Her over Betty. Of course Betty had always been nice but I admired how Veronica could walk all over Archie and he would always come back for more.

In grade 8, I blossomed and so all of the girls who had been in My class in elementary school now hated Me even more. I now began to notice how much the boys stared at Me. I had no idea up until this time that I was attractive but now I did and instead of it helping My social life it ruined it because boys no longer wanted to be just friends with Me and I was still not ready to go beyond friendship.

In grade 9, boys competed like crazy for My affections. On the first day at My new school there was an amusing "slave auction" for all of the newcomers (Me being one of them). I resented being "sold" but I did feel flattered over being sold for the highest amount than all of the other so called slaves. I also felt good about being boughten by the #1 hunk of the school and the fact that the entire time We/we had together he just sat on the school field with Me and asked Me what I wanted to do and begged to know more about Me (he sadly turned out to be a total creep later in years). A boy who lived a few miles away often snuck onto our property to see Me. he had to sneak onto our property because My father would no longer allow Me to associate with boys since they wanted more than friendship. This boy would take Me for long walks in the woods on our property and would continuously beg for Me to be his Girlfriend. But there was one catch. he said if I accepted then he should be able to have sex with Me. I still was not ready. Each time he asked I would end the visit and tell him to leave. he did not give up that easily but eventually he found out that I liked his twin brother more and that seemed to do it. Though he did continue to stare at Me when We/we rode the same school bus. (Two years later when I was 16, his twin brother who I used to have the crush on had found out where I was living and had come by to ask Me out on a date. After taking Me out he asked Me to sleep with him. I turned him down as well.)

So still a Virgin at 14, and turning boys down right, left, and centre, I was confused about what I wanted. I had allowed several different boys to date Me but each one of them eventually either bored Me (so I would toss them for another) or they would try to get into My pants (in which case I would toss them because of that instead). Then My life took an even sharper turn.

I started to babysit two young kids for a very open minded couple. They would go out in the evening to the bar usually together but would most often come home seperately. I found the father's Penthouse, Hustler, and Playboy magazines and also Penthouse Letters/Forum. I had seen two things in them that have never left My memory. One of those two things was an article that was either in Hustler or Penthouse (I have been unable to find the article since). The article had two photos on one page of the same Woman with long brown hair. In one photo She wore frilly white lingerie and had Her hair curled and in two long ponytails. A cutesy-doll sort of look. In the other photo She wore a sexy black leather catsuit with thigh high boots and She held a whip in Her hand. She was snarling nastily. The title at the top of the article read something like, "Which one would you rather be?". I did not even have to think about it. I knew which one I was drawn to more. I also went through all of the small Penthouse Letters booklets. They had alot of stories about S/M in them. The stories about men being slaves and having to eat Women's shit gave Me mixed feelings. On one hand I was revolted by the thought of someone eating shit. On the other hand the thought of a man submitting that much to a Woman really appealed to Me.

I have never looked back. I did not go lifestyle until I was in My early 20's but even before that, any man I dated had to be either submissive, short, subservient, or all of the above.

It has been hard being a Dominant Woman in a male dominant world. men have tried to fight against My Dominant nature and many have even wrongfully accused Me of being a Lesbian as well as a Feminist (as if Feminist is a dirty word) and a man-hater. Domination is "in" right now but that is a problem for Female Supremists. Women have always expressed a need for equal rights and so the dominant men in society have taken advantage of that by making it equally okay for them to dominate Women in the BSDM scene as it is for Women to Dominate men. I cannot stand visiting other fetish websites where there are pictures or banners of Women bound and having harmful things done to them. (Some even try to justify it by showing a Woman as being the one who is dominating the Woman.) To Me, this does not seem equal. Do the men in society not try to dominate Women enough as it is?!

I also have a hard time being in the company of "vanilla" people. Especially when they are My family. It forever keeps Me in the closet and forces Me to live a double life. I struggle with that often. One day I will have had enough and I will inform anyone who asks Me about Myself that I am a Dominant Female Supremist! It would be wonderful not having to hide anymore. Maybe one day I will even be able to walk My slaves around outdoors on leashes! What a wonderful world that would be!

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Comments:

Goddess Lorena,

I just read you story about being a dominant womyn in a mans world. I couldn't agree with you more, and hope one day all womyn will wake up. We must keep the lowly male creatures aware that their only value is what they earn by showing proper behavior towards womyn. Unfortunately, my everyday life seems like I am living a lie. At least your site lets me know others feel as I do. I am very happy you have provided this site to let us know we are not alone. I hope someday to build a circle of friends that share our attitudes. Maybe even, your site will help develop such local circles all around the country, or help join with others like us in our communities.

Thank you.

M


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